CUT YOU :: 2009

When were you good for me
For Me
And not for 'Us'
When were you loving Me
When you broke
That physical trust
I gave this body
So naively
Thinking
This completed us
That this sacred
Transaction
Transcended
Unsustainable lust

Now there’s no reason
There’s no reason to have any doubt
No purpose for you in my life
I think I’ll have to cut you out
I want to cut you
I want to cut you out
Let my happiness
Bleed you out
Drip and cry
Cry it out

This kiss
Is a dagger
I want to ram
In your back
This smile
Is like murder
With a plan
Of attack
This word
Is premeditated
And that
Is a fact
You have
No hold
I do not
Want you back

I say this with fucking anger
And I say it with laughter because I can
I find your whining pathetic
Grow some balls
You’re a goddamn grown man
There is an age
Where life with no purpose
Is no longer a valid excuse
When lashing out
At those who supported you
Illuminates what you will lose

This fuck
Is not friendly
It’s a solemn
Hit and run
These eyes
Are not forgiving
They are
The barrel of my gun
This mouth
Is violence in its sweetness
It is pink glass shards
Sugar spun
And this novelty
That I called displaced anger
Is my coming together
As you come undone

Self absorbed
Pity party
Perros
Is always feelin’ down
You look
For any ear
To hear your pitiful sound
But it’s always
Gimme gimme
To whoever is around
When will you man up
And stop lickin’ the ground

If you think it’s too much
To handle my happiness
Then I want you to go fuck yourself
Till you bleed
If you find my strength
Caused you resentment
Then I will cut you out
And I will not for one moment grieve