HELD BY A THREAD :: 2009

This bond is still there
On life support
And waning
But that pulse
Is like a roar
In my heart
And my actions need
No explaining
When something
This precious
Enters and redefines
Your existence
You do not walk away
You do not forget
You use space
You use memories
As your act of resistance

You may not see me now
But that was my face
Five nights a week
That silent partner
On a couch
In front of the TV
That warm body
Always held up front
So that you could see

I may have said I let you go
But I still have you
Held by a thread
No one can crush my love
When I have these memories
Still in my head

You may not feel me now
But that was my laughter
That shook you
When the heaviness got
Too deep
That was my hand
That broke the rules
And disrupted
Your morning sleep

I may have said I let you go
But I still have you
Held by a thread
No one can crush my love
When I have these memories
Still in my head

You may not hear my voice now
But yea that was me
Singing in your ears
From home karaoke mp3s
Those were my words
'I will never leave you
If you need me'
That was me listening
When you broke my heart
With the depth in which
You confided me

When well intentioned friends
Play with the resolutions
In my head
I take their directions
As the love it is
And I put it all to bed
If I must let go
I'd rather hold on
To us by a thread
As time passes
The good times
Stay instead
No one was there
Between those sheets
Or in those moments
That we shared
No one can grasp
The depth I fell
And the boldness
In how I still care

I may have said I let you go
But I still have you
Held by a thread
No one can crush my love
When I have these memories
Still in my head