INKED :: 2009

Into life I welcome change
And discomfort and even pain
Remind me I am alive
And why I can not stay the same
In this significant time
I want to spend it with you
You are like black ink
Marking me like a tattoo

The other guys
Are trivial flirtations
More like exercise at the gym
I stay on top of my game
But I pass through them
Like a superficial whim

You are like a pillar
Of intimidation
I want to grind against
You are like an invasion
Of my mind
After a night we just spent
You are breaking
The playfulness
And making me think harder
It’s why you are
Still undefined
But your presence is growing larger

I should be feeling angst
But instead
I have a smile on my face
It’s like God pulled you in
To existence
From some unknown place
I am trying to
Understand your language
And speak to your heart
But I am inexperienced
And I find comedy
In how I fumble in the dark

The intentions are there
To pull you in closer
I know you have to
At least recognize this
It is transparent
In my face
Or when you’re sleeping
And I have to give you a kiss
I have a mad desire
To protect
And for the first time
Not to direct
I want you to be you
When you are with me
I want to chill
And relax completely
How do I let you know
How truly different you are for me
That it freaks me out
But for me
The unknown fills me with excitement
And shreds a need for doubt