SOMEONE BETTER :: 2009

My heartbeat would speed like I had done too much blow
My oxygen would feel limited, like my throat would close

This butterfly would rage inside like a panic flutter of anxiety
And dark predictions would cloud my mental stability

This attack was born out of insecurity and poor decision-making
I put too much of my happiness into us and it was heart-breaking

The weight of distrust
And an open solution
The trials of lust
And outside pollution
Flawed completion
Looking past the cracks
Realizes those predictions -
This will not last

My eyes would travel and scan the crowd for a flirtation
ADD I liked the absurdity of strangers’ reciprocations

This culture is like a petri dish for growing something unrealistic
Always looking for someone better becomes serialistic

A type, a look, a preference, an overwhelming high
Clouds the possibility of what’s in front of our eyes

Nothing really ends
That I know,
That I know
Time may not come now
But so?
So?
I see who
Is in front of me this time
And I have no rush
To call you mine
We’ll do
What we do
Until you see
What is here too